panther's lair

logically, i realize that i am crazy...but still.

what a sad world it is when it is actually physically jarring to see an overweight white woman singing in a video on vh1. i don't even know what video it was, or who the artist is...but the singer is a little overweight and it was just startling to see her singing. you never see overweight white women like that on vh1. so on one hand i am happy to see that there finally was one (you go girl- who ever you are!)...on the other hand, it is just so very sad that something as stupid as weight can keep good singers from appearing on tv, at least if they are white. black women who are overweight still seem more likely to be successful and famous (and often beautiful) in the celebrity world than white women who are overweight.

i am reading the book portnoy's complaint and it is done in a very fascinating way. i feel like i am reading the transcript of things that a patient told his psychologist. it doesn't go in chronological order at all, but rather seems like a series of memories where one memory triggers another.