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2008-05-19 - 4:01 p.m.
new page

2008-05-09 - 10:07 a.m.
a few things...just to have an update

2008-02-07 - 10:42 p.m.
scuttlebutt

2007-10-28 - 7:43 p.m.
some of my random pre-bed thoughts

2007-10-22 - 5:38 p.m.
end of rope

2007-08-22 - 11:11 a.m.
peter pan peanut butter!

2007-08-17 - 7:39 a.m.
naming hippos

2007-07-30 - 8:01 p.m.
this is why i should never try and be social

2007-07-29 - 3:54 p.m.
me as a simpson

2007-06-28 - 12:48 p.m.
the damn phone

2007-06-22 - 10:13 p.m.
intense week

2007-05-31 - 7:32 p.m.
irritating neighborhood children

2007-05-27 - 7:57 p.m.
first year anniversary

2007-05-07 - 1:39 p.m.
my dad's birthday

2007-04-27 - 4:42 a.m.
an hour's worth of my late night insomniac ramblings

2007-04-24 - 7:48 p.m.
chicago- not *the* rant, but a statement that one day a rant will follow

2007-04-05 - 9:48 p.m.
confession

2007-03-27 - 7:34 p.m.
more on crotch grabbing

2007-03-26 - 8:30 a.m.
my anxious caffeine addiciton

2007-03-13 - 7:51 p.m.
more on nakidity

2007-03-08 - 9:31 a.m.
more hero worship

2007-03-05 - 5:33 p.m.
underpants and elvis

2007-02-27 - 8:53 p.m.
new drug to calm my crazies

2007-02-27 - 8:11 a.m.
fear of the doctor

2007-01-29 - 8:43 a.m.
men i'd like to feed soup to

2007-01-18 - 6:32 a.m.
darn weather

2007-01-09 - 8:02 a.m.
need more sleep- but how

2006-11-12 - 10:44 p.m.
exhausted

2006-11-07 - 8:05 p.m.
movies and songs that make me cry

2006-11-02 - 9:17 p.m.
mullets and bono

2006-11-01 - 8:44 a.m.
weight and depression

2006-10-26 - 11:11 p.m.
intense sort of day all around

2006-10-25 - 1:21 p.m.
awesome

2006-10-24 - 7:14 p.m.
faux hawk and similar to my dad

2006-10-23 - 4:24 p.m.
school is out on friday (again)

2006-10-17 - 2:35 p.m.
self-help books

2006-10-16 - 2:11 p.m.
still doing far too craptastic for my taste

2006-10-15 - 10:29 p.m.
milk vs. ice cream

2006-10-15 - 9:01 a.m.
crap is in the air

2006-10-10 - 7:41 p.m.
too many hassles

2006-10-06 - 1:45 p.m.
ball spanking

2006-10-06 - 1:45 p.m.
ball spanking

2006-10-06 - 1:45 p.m.
ball spanking

2006-10-06 - 1:45 p.m.
ball spanking

2006-09-27 - 7:51 a.m.
back to work

2006-09-22 - 8:41 a.m.
hard night

2006-09-21 - 11:04 a.m.
3 more ways to untwist my thinking (back to therapy hour finally)

2006-09-20 - 8:03 a.m.
a reading i will go

2006-09-19 - 2:45 p.m.
connected

2006-09-18 - 2:59 p.m.
some changes that are common after your dad dies

2006-09-16 - 9:41 p.m.
my very long entry that was supposed to be very short but where i never seemed to stop writing

2006-09-14 - 6:54 p.m.
lords prayer

2006-09-14 - 1:04 p.m.
grieving more for my daddy

2006-09-14 - 11:09 a.m.
2 more ways to untwist my thinking

2006-09-13 - 9:04 a.m.
the first two ways to untwist my thinking

2006-09-12 - 9:37 a.m.
starting part 2 of my big book- working through the depression

2006-09-10 - 11:06 a.m.
failing

2006-09-10 - 3:45 a.m.
summer movie watching

2006-09-08 - 9:21 a.m.
just talking more about my dad mostly

2006-09-07 - 11:49 a.m.
finishing up part one of my therapy hour

2006-09-06 - 9:12 a.m.
therapy hour- measuring moods and questions

2006-09-05 - 8:03 a.m.
check

2006-09-04 - 8:11 p.m.
zatarain's

2006-09-04 - 12:43 p.m.
daddy

2006-09-03 - 8:11 p.m.
it's been a rough day, but i feel a little better now

2006-09-01 - 7:52 a.m.
some thanks

2006-08-31 - 9:29 a.m.
back to therapy hour

2006-08-30 - 10:36 p.m.
serotonin

2006-08-29 - 9:17 a.m.
it doesn't fucking matter- just had to vent today

2006-08-27 - 2:30 a.m.
what a way to wake up

2006-08-25 - 9:58 a.m.
looking more into anger on therapy hour today

2006-08-24 - 8:12 p.m.
hollywood and the wrong portrayal of mental disorders

2006-08-23 - 9:11 a.m.
-

2006-08-21 - 8:43 a.m.
continuing on with my therapy hour

2006-08-20 - 9:19 p.m.
a couple things i like

2006-08-19 - 10:48 p.m.
uvula piercings

2006-08-18 - 8:35 a.m.
change is in my mind

2006-08-15 - 10:54 a.m.
happy birthday astra!

2006-08-13 - 1:43 p.m.
idiot airport policies

2006-08-11 - 6:41 a.m.
that sweet one, she sure can get worked up

2006-08-05 - 10:42 p.m.
going well so far

2006-08-02 - 3:02 p.m.
so anxious i can barely move

2006-08-01 - 8:35 p.m.
just a small part of my day

2006-07-29 - 1:20 p.m.
cartoon voices

2006-07-27 - 9:59 a.m.
more of my rantings or thoughts

2006-07-25 - 3:53 a.m.
ah the things cats do

2006-07-22 - 6:17 p.m.
chili

2006-07-21 - 10:39 a.m.
things that complicate death

2006-07-20 - 10:14 a.m.
back to grief, anxiety, what happens after death, and some things are looking up

2006-07-19 - 4:24 p.m.
dr. sweet one

2006-07-17 - 8:55 p.m.
can't shut me up today

2006-07-17 - 8:34 p.m.
things are better (relatively at least) now

2006-07-17 - 1:07 p.m.
typing while a panic attack starts

2006-07-17 - 10:06 a.m.
still just working through this mess

2006-07-13 - 9:01 a.m.
letter to my dad

2006-07-10 - 11:14 a.m.
a book on grieving

2006-07-06 - 2:51 p.m.
still missing my daddy

2006-07-03 - 9:20 p.m.
fireworks

2006-07-02 - 9:27 p.m.
stomach drop

2006-07-01 - 10:42 a.m.
clint

2006-06-29 - 2:57 p.m.
numb aunt and video tape of funeral

2006-06-29 - 8:22 a.m.
not another drug related death

2006-06-27 - 10:41 p.m.
goat balls and watermelon rinds

2006-06-27 - 8:24 p.m.
extra nuts

2006-06-27 - 12:14 p.m.
rose colored glasses and AIDS

2006-06-26 - 10:08 p.m.
my mind can handle cartoons

2006-06-26 - 1:12 p.m.
still struggling

2006-06-24 - 12:25 a.m.
late night ramblings from a newly married crazy, practically jobless, crazy woman in mourning

2006-06-21 - 12:04 p.m.
gfea's birthday

2006-06-21 - 8:21 a.m.
ant

2006-06-19 - 1:36 p.m.
one foot at a time

2006-06-19 - 9:04 a.m.
broken guestbook,

2006-06-18 - 7:30 a.m.
brutus

2006-06-16 - 6:31 p.m.
more thoughts on death and other stuff

2006-06-15 - 1:39 a.m.
my dad

2006-06-15 - 12:35 a.m.
he is gone

2006-06-14 - 11:13 a.m.
hard to find something to do

2006-06-13 - 8:46 p.m.
scattered thoughts again

2006-06-12 - 8:21 a.m.
where to start, more on my dad,

2006-06-09 - 7:27 p.m.
a rambled mess of emotions here, but i tried to end a little upbeat...

2006-06-05 - 2:18 p.m.
going to nm after all...

2006-06-04 - 9:27 p.m.
emotionally all over the place

2006-05-25 - 11:01 p.m.
so overwhelmed (death, marriage...all in one week).

2006-05-23 - 2:01 a.m.
few more days

2006-05-14 - 4:51 p.m.
my dad's health gets worse

2006-05-14 - 10:40 a.m.
mother's day didn't turn out as i would have liked so far

2006-05-11 - 8:56 p.m.
shit in a chair, nasty people, harvesting anxiety, massages, acupuncture, faith, delusions, and more anxiety

2006-05-07 - 11:24 a.m.
wedding woot

2006-04-19 - 9:53 a.m.
the student that passed away drew my picture

2006-04-01 - 11:14 a.m.
why

2006-03-24 - 5:46 p.m.
comb-over mullet

2006-03-23 - 7:50 p.m.
padded room here i come

2006-03-16 - 7:26 a.m.
i'll miss you- one of my favorite students dies

2006-02-24 - 7:50 a.m.
good luck sweet one- i am animal

2006-02-10 - 12:18 p.m.
what in the hell am i babbling about this time (and my girl is awesome)

2006-02-03 - 6:19 p.m.
interview is over...hoooray!

2006-02-03 - 8:59 a.m.
interviews, bono, and w

2006-02-01 - 7:50 p.m.
people are nasty

2006-01-30 - 9:09 a.m.
lost my mind

2006-01-18 - 7:36 p.m.
cats and dingleberrys

2006-01-11 - 9:38 a.m.
dead cat outside...sigh

2006-01-09 - 9:00 a.m.
hard drive crashing blues

2006-01-02 - 2:08 p.m.
a little update

2005-12-26 - 7:43 p.m.
curious minds want to know about water weenie love

2005-12-14 - 6:57 p.m.
wagon types

2005-12-06 - 10:01 a.m.
apparently i like miniatures

2005-11-30 - 7:49 a.m.
cucumber and cement

2005-11-13 - 10:39 a.m.
plastic jedi

2005-11-10 - 5:03 p.m.
things are a little better with the retirement funds

2005-11-10 - 2:11 p.m.
fucking retirement and tax bullshit

2005-11-07 - 6:09 a.m.
job didn't work out

2005-11-01 - 9:09 a.m.
hey- a religion quiz

2005-10-25 - 8:08 a.m.
payday

2005-10-22 - 12:44 p.m.
kirstie alley's voice and the sweet one

2005-10-19 - 8:38 a.m.
warm fuzzy

2005-10-18 - 4:26 p.m.
shaking with rage

2005-10-17 - 7:31 a.m.
helium

2005-10-16 - 11:50 a.m.
perhaps a conclusion to the frog mouse sex scandal

2005-10-15 - 11:04 a.m.
a cranky money rant

2005-10-11 - 8:46 p.m.
sims anxiety

2005-10-10 - 6:04 p.m.
pretend vacation at home

2005-10-07 - 12:32 p.m.
more on frog and mouse

2005-10-07 - 8:28 a.m.
froggy wants to marry miss mousie

2005-09-29 - 7:49 p.m.
football

2005-09-28 - 7:23 p.m.
a bit of random updating

2005-09-21 - 1:19 p.m.
monkey themed office

2005-09-15 - 7:29 p.m.
shrunken adult

2005-09-15 - 5:09 p.m.
i got a call from the principles today

2005-09-12 - 8:49 a.m.
almost swallowed glass

2005-09-08 - 8:30 a.m.
glbt club and toilet paper thief

2005-09-04 - 7:14 p.m.
a letter to bush from michael moore

2005-09-02 - 9:01 a.m.
new orleans, mississippi, gas, butterflies, peppermint oil, nose spray, and kitchen shears

2005-08-25 - 4:15 a.m.
nigel "zipper" wexford, I

2005-08-17 - 9:33 p.m.
new car

2005-08-10 - 11:56 a.m.
getting caught up

2005-07-24 - 10:34 a.m.
ant bite

2005-07-18 - 5:04 p.m.
my intelligence

2005-07-13 - 11:15 a.m.
koalas are stoners

2005-07-08 - 11:22 a.m.
some rambling, and my initial thoughts on transguys

2005-07-01 - 10:39 a.m.
back from the desert

2005-06-15 - 4:57 p.m.
cat breath

2005-06-09 - 10:39 p.m.
here are the good things

2005-06-09 - 3:59 p.m.
got a job!!!!!

2005-06-09 - 3:59 p.m.
got a job!!!!!

2005-06-09 - 8:41 a.m.
sure could use a stiff drink

2005-06-09 - 8:41 a.m.
sure could use a stiff drink

2005-06-08 - 9:26 a.m.
interview

2005-06-08 - 9:26 a.m.
interview

2005-05-30 - 8:06 p.m.
dolphins, the sweet one's family, and famous leaders

2005-05-21 - 4:45 p.m.
dancing at the local gay club with my students

2005-05-18 - 8:18 p.m.
garlic thai food, burps, and nose blowing

2005-05-18 - 5:53 p.m.
wow, three years

2005-05-16 - 3:47 p.m.
funny neighbor lady

2005-05-16 - 3:47 p.m.
funny neighbor lady

2005-05-10 - 5:23 p.m.
our "helpful" neighbor

2005-05-09 - 7:58 p.m.
the bad and the good

2005-04-26 - 8:08 a.m.
many good people

2005-04-23 - 10:03 a.m.
a few more songs trapped in my brain

2005-04-19 - 10:04 a.m.
stupid war on drugs

2005-04-17 - 11:26 a.m.
ah, drag shows, crazy cat lady, and body frosting

2005-04-14 - 9:50 a.m.
random thoughts and songs

2005-04-07 - 9:27 a.m.
ah, spring and allergies...

2005-03-29 - 4:45 p.m.
RING!!!!!!!!

2005-03-24 - 9:02 a.m.
odd coincidence

2005-03-22 - 8:19 a.m.
my long happiness- babbling about being engaged and such

2005-03-12 - 9:34 a.m.
engaged!!!!

2005-03-11 - 11:08 a.m.
shaving a llama

2005-03-10 - 6:47 p.m.
sombrero

2005-06-07 - 5:04 p.m.
opinion from a new bisexual

2005-06-07 - 11:11 a.m.
plane tickets and restaurants

2005-02-24 - 4:31 a.m.
update on my misery

2005-02-23 - 4:31 a.m.
miserable cold or flu or some other nasty thing

2005-02-21 - 5:06 p.m.
Hunter S. Thompson

2005-02-14 - 8:14 a.m.
short sappy note

2005-02-04 - 11:06 a.m.
chocolate...oh yeah

2005-02-02 - 8:02 a.m.
sponsor of glbt club

2005-01-24 - 8:00 a.m.
pouring water on a cat's face

2005-01-21 - 11:32 a.m.
lying on the floor talking to grandma trying not to throw up

2005-01-17 - 7:39 p.m.
oh the places i see my students

2005-01-10 - 7:18 a.m.
wtf

2005-01-09 - 4:54 p.m.
interesting conversation with a 4-year-old

2005-01-06 - 8:12 a.m.
nothing really to say

2004-12-26 - 8:35 p.m.
christmas

2004-12-22 - 7:52 p.m.
note for k. scott

2004-12-08 - 2:50 p.m.
ugly christians

2004-11-17 - 7:43 a.m.
itch update

2004-11-14 - 9:00 a.m.
conversation with the boy (while still itching)

2004-11-11 - 5:52 p.m.
the itching is driving me mad

2004-11-10 - 7:52 a.m.
itching

2004-11-08 - 9:09 p.m.
lick button

2004-11-04 - 9:21 a.m.
my thoughts on our nation

2004-10-31 - 4:32 p.m.
midget tossing

2004-10-30 - 7:24 p.m.
argh

2004-10-27 - 7:42 p.m.
my boobs can clap better than yours

2004-10-25 - 8:06 p.m.
true story

2004-10-25 - 9:00 a.m.
overwhelmed

2004-10-12 - 9:11 p.m.
overwhelmed but loving those kitties

2004-10-06 - 8:03 a.m.
rant on christian forwards

2004-09-29 - 8:25 a.m.
smashing noses and fall illness

2004-09-22 - 10:12 a.m.
sneezing

2004-09-15 - 10:12 a.m.
more on the feeling like butt stuff

2004-09-14 - 8:49 a.m.
ugh, not feeling so good

2004-09-07 - 8:44 a.m.
broken ac

2004-09-01 - 7:20 p.m.
a quick update

2004-08-27 - 7:57 a.m.
dilbert's little adventure

2004-08-19 - 10:06 a.m.
guest entry by me

2004-08-19 - 9:33 a.m.
links

2004-08-19 - 8:41 a.m.
congrats chris and eric!

2004-08-15 - 6:17 p.m.
my black belt

2004-08-12 - 7:54 p.m.
hug while sparring?

2004-08-09 - 6:31 p.m.
we did it!!!!

2004-08-04 - 8:53 p.m.
black belt test is a-comin

2004-07-29 - 11:14 a.m.
thank you conservative, judgmental, uber-baptist, republicans

2004-07-26 - 10:33 a.m.
fun with vomit and jack in the poop

2004-07-24 - 4:56 p.m.
bruises, scrapes, and cuts...oh my

2004-07-21 - 7:04 a.m.
moving sucks

2004-07-15 - 11:22 a.m.
a good talk

2004-07-14 - 9:00 a.m.
raise

2004-07-13 - 8:49 a.m.
no formula for success

2004-07-12 - 2:48 p.m.
how freudian

2004-07-08 - 8:28 a.m.
i just don't have anything fit for saying here

2004-07-02 - 10:33 a.m.
australian wildlife

2004-07-01 - 9:33 a.m.
a conversation with the boy and my views on motherhood

2004-06-21 - 8:37 p.m.
happy birthday ex-machina

2004-06-19 - 10:06 a.m.
how hard can it be to make two milkshakes

2004-06-16 - 9:27 p.m.
my sweet toothless one (not entirely toothless- just wisdom toothless)

2004-06-14 - 10:25 a.m.
feeling like a mighty pile of butt

2004-06-08 - 8:22 p.m.
good hair, great classes, bad car, and funny quote about rednecks, lesbians and mullets

2004-06-08 - 12:48 p.m.
demented thoughts

2004-06-06 - 7:13 p.m.
update and beware- sneezing is bad for your health (or my health at least)

2004-05-24 - 9:54 a.m.
weekend and dreams

2004-05-20 - 6:46 p.m.
jackasses who create spyware, viruses, and any other evil files that end up messing up your computer

2004-05-18 - 12:16 p.m.
second anniversary

2004-05-15 - 8:20 a.m.
kumquats

2004-05-15 - 8:20 a.m.
kumquats

2004-05-13 - 12:46 p.m.
playing with the cats

2004-05-12 - 8:29 p.m.
just one of those days

2004-05-12 - 9:05 a.m.
sweet one may not have may job after all

2004-05-11 - 8:24 p.m.
weird air conditioner problems in car

2004-05-10 - 5:49 p.m.
a bit of good luck...knock on wood

2004-05-07 - 11:57 a.m.
naked monkey

2004-05-01 - 10:16 a.m.
i need to shut up

2004-04-28 - 1:22 p.m.
new home

2004-04-27 - 7:57 p.m.
what's this- a relatively uplifting entry (compared to most of the recent ones)

2004-04-26 - 5:07 p.m.
no profound thoughts here- just need to vent about the boy so i don't lose my mind

2004-04-24 - 9:45 a.m.
break a board in mid air

2004-04-21 - 4:52 p.m.
dr. astralounge

2004-04-21 - 3:21 p.m.
taking her down with me

2004-04-21 - 12:10 p.m.
overwhelming

2004-04-21 - 9:39 a.m.
more random ranting

2004-04-20 - 7:55 p.m.
ah the random update

2004-04-18 - 7:21 p.m.
imaginary friends (or dogs)

2004-04-15 - 5:10 p.m.
strange world and chip sneezes

2004-04-15 - 5:10 p.m.
strange world and chip sneezes

2004-04-14 - 7:43 p.m.
interesting way to sign an email message to your professor

2004-04-13 - 12:45 p.m.
cough drops and kitty personalities

2004-04-10 - 10:48 a.m.
shits and letters

2004-04-08 - 12:53 p.m.
eye jewelry

2004-04-07 - 9:17 a.m.
orville bites balloons, back knots, and dreams oh my

2004-04-05 - 8:55 p.m.
atomic bomb on head

2004-04-05 - 8:11 p.m.
my birthday shenanigans

2004-04-02 - 9:01 p.m.
the gods are still against me

2004-04-01 - 8:55 p.m.
low sex drive?

2004-03-31 - 1:34 p.m.
strange sleep

2004-03-27 - 3:04 p.m.
a get together to say goodbye to my 20's

2004-03-24 - 9:34 a.m.
good ole guestbook

2004-03-23 - 4:41 p.m.
slaw dogs

2004-03-20 - 9:18 a.m.
glitch in matrix

2004-03-19 - 6:10 p.m.
don't even bother reading- it's my opinions on the q.a.f. cast.

2004-03-19 - 9:44 a.m.
more on q.a.f. for astralounge

2004-03-18 - 10:40 a.m.
a ramble on nothing, cats, and gay shows

2004-03-10 - 5:31 p.m.
not bette midler

2004-03-10 - 10:10 a.m.
go bette midler!

2004-03-09 - 6:28 p.m.
industrial sized kleenex

2004-03-02 - 5:31 p.m.
road kill capital of the world

2004-02-19 - 9:01 p.m.
green fur

2004-02-19 - 9:01 p.m.
green fur

2004-02-17 - 9:44 p.m.
i need a muffin

2004-02-14 - 2:53 p.m.
best buy owns valentines day

2004-02-14 - 9:22 a.m.
some slight public sappiness for my sweet one on valentines day

2004-02-12 - 9:31 p.m.
bush and education (is there anything he does that i approve of?)

2004-02-11 - 2:33 p.m.
the president looks ridiculous

2004-02-10 - 7:30 p.m.
more on my butt and god

2004-02-10 - 9:48 a.m.
missing: have you seen my butt

2004-02-03 - 7:58 p.m.
dead squirrel by mailbox

2004-02-02 - 7:54 a.m.
in response to a guestbook entry on fri. the 13

2004-02-01 - 6:14 p.m.
date at home, shopping, and l word

2004-01-31 - 9:39 a.m.
she sure is funny (when irritated)

2004-01-31 - 9:25 a.m.
where have i been?

2004-01-28 - 3:17 p.m.
neutered on friday the 13th

2004-01-28 - 9:57 a.m.
not right

2004-01-26 - 10:16 a.m.
the odd good bad day

2004-01-21 - 9:48 a.m.
kids toys, v-day and party

2004-01-15 - 10:44 p.m.
point & click with feet

2004-01-14 - 9:37 a.m.
it's all about the bladder

2004-01-13 - 10:15 a.m.
strange animals

2004-01-07 - 3:23 p.m.
mardi gras hotel

2004-01-07 - 10:13 a.m.
cat testicles

2004-01-06 - 6:44 p.m.
fucking mornings

2004-01-06 - 9:56 a.m.
perfect new years

2004-01-04 - 5:18 p.m.
good to be back

2003-12-15 - 1:56 p.m.
main water line burst

2003-12-14 - 10:05 p.m.
karaoke insanity

2003-12-14 - 4:18 p.m.
adventures to the farm

2003-12-11 - 9:18 p.m.
to my martial arts instructor (that part is at the end)

2003-12-11 - 12:55 p.m.
17 days, broken finger and a near perfect day

2003-12-08 - 1:35 p.m.
sadness in spite of a wonderful weekend

2003-12-02 - 7:32 p.m.
i'll have a serving of passive aggressive please

2003-11-25 - 12:47 p.m.
saw the aftermath of a bad wreck

2003-11-24 - 8:40 a.m.
happy birthday sweet one

2003-11-19 - 10:34 a.m.
bronchitis and sinusitus BUT good news for my sister and one cat sits on another

2003-11-18 - 9:46 a.m.
those crazy cats

2003-11-16 - 5:16 p.m.
another whining entry

2003-11-16 - 4:11 p.m.
life may be against me (and people i care about) but at least there's purple corn kool-aid

panther's lair